Well I’ve been back from France for just over two weeks. It has been an interesting re-entry with a few challenges and a few triumphs.
Getting over the chest infection plus jet lag was a bit of a challenge. Last weekend, I stopped sleeping like a vampire – highly alert in the middle of the night. It has taken a while to normalise so to speak.
I have caught up with some friends and family now. It’s been great to see everyone but with a couple of sad occasions (with the passing of two Mothers of two friends). It was great to be here and be able to support my friends in my small way.
Post-holiday syndrome has hit a little – France was such a highlight and it has been tricky coming down from that to normal life in NZ.
I am starting to think about work and finding a new place to live and realise that my goal setting and self-confidence needs a bit of attention. I got really good at handling bc but handling normal life events takes a different set of skills that are either rusty or hiding.
I have been trying to re-discover the routine that I had before I went away. Exercise daily, working on projects and catching up with people etc etc. I am now starting to want a bit more structure and stimulation in my day.
I think the main thing is that I am no longer in the bc system. Yet I’m not in the ‘back to normal life’ stage. I am in the middle, in a transition.
On the positive side, I am still buoyed by ending my year on a high/going to France. That trip gave me inspiration that I can live a great life in the future. Now, I just need to do practical and logistical stuff to get to where I want to be.
I am really looking forward to getting back into normal life plus a few adventures e.g. I want to travel again next year and get back into my old field of work – international aid and development. I am looking forward to it.
Three months on from bc, what is helping me:
- Setting goals for the future. What do I really want to do? And stepping gradually towards them one step at a time.
- Don’t forget to focus on health. I am still in the recovery phase so my health requires attention – exercise each day, eating well, getting back to my pre-bc weight and not over-committing myself.
- Still getting support. Art therapy, acupuncture, herbs and vitamins, eight hours of sleep, talking to supportive people e.g. the Cancer Society, friends etc.
- A gentle re-entry to ‘normal’ life: working part time or having flexibility, not taking on too much stress at work, having time to exercise and relax etc.
- Starting to take more risks. I don’t have to live inside a comfort zone anymore. I can start to plan more, socialise more and step outside the box.
- Being flexible. Over the past 18 months, I had ideas on what I would be doing now or in my future e.g. where I would be living and what kind of work I would be doing. Now that I am here in November 2012, I find that my goals have shifted and I am seeking a bit more stimulation and challenge in my future. So I am listening to my intuition more and trying to keep up with new dreams and goals that are coming into my thoughts.