I have just realised that I have just passed my two year anniversary for breast cancer diagnosis and the accompanying surgeries which started in June 2011. It is very cool that I wasn’t even thinking about it and too incredible for words, that two years on, I am feeling well and happy. When going through the bleak dark tunnels of surgery, chemo and a bit of despair, it is hard to imagine that those life low-lights were actually just blips. So much good has come out of the bad stuff and I feel very grateful and blessed:
– My chemo and Herceptin worked; I am cancer free and down to annual check-ups.
– I am happy with the reconstructed breast; okay I have a few scars around the place including my tummy. But overall, I don’t think about the breast anymore. I worked hard to get that new breast reconstructed and I feel really good about it.
– After finishing all the chemo and Herceptin, I am physically feeling a lot better. It took a few months to get the medications out of my system and as that happened, I lost weight and gained energy. I think my immune system is still a bit low and I am not ‘high’ energy but I feel good.
– I feel that I have a better sense of who I am and what makes me happy. I am now living life more on my terms and listening to my intuition more. I feel that I am finally the chief executive of my life.
Since finishing treatment in August/September last year, I have had a one month holiday in France, bought an apartment, started working again and all kinds of other things. By the way, I really really recommend doing a dream post-breast cancer holiday. It filled me up with good times, hope, and inspiration which is the perfect antidote to migraines, nausea, needles and hospitals.
Turning the corner
- As June arrives good things are starting to come my way; I feel like I have turned a corner with life. I have decided to leave my job and am looking at a couple of different, new work projects. I have found that even though I finished all my treatment late last year, I still need and want a lot of flexibility in terms of my work and to do with health too. I will keep you posted on the new projects as they arise.
- I heard an interview with a dancer on radio recently; she had had breast cancer twice and she said something like ….“after all of that, I felt that I never wanted to work full time again. I wanted to do lots of different things and I’m a lot poorer but I’ve had a great life”. That is exactly how I feel.
- I have had some wonderful connections and conversations with friends lately and feel that those connections are hugely important. I feel that I am moving on to great things at the moment and am feeling really blessed and fortunate.
Developments on the website
Aidan has been working with me on Breast Cancer Nirvana for a few months now. We are looking forward to the development of a smartphone App and I will reveal more about that as we get closer to that. It is really exciting.
Recently, I got a donation of $500 to the website from the Pacifica Manakau branch in Auckland, New Zealand. I found it quite emotional as they did not know me personally but appreciated my work on the website. I have worked out how I want to spend that money and pay it forward – so will let you know next week.
A good friend said this recently and I think it sums up a lot of our lives:
“When I was diagnosed last year I decided that in 2013 I would travel
as a reward for being given a second chance at life”.
A friend Sandra gave me a card this week. It says:
And the day came when the risk to remain a tight bud was more painful
than the risk it took to bloom.
Another friend Sara left me a note:
“You are such an inspiration girl. Keep doing what you are doing and fulfil your purpose and dreams.
Life is precious babes”.
I feel that I am on track with my life. It is not the life I lived before (it’s a different ‘normal’) and maybe on paper, doesn’t look that great. But it is great for me as I’m doing what I want to do and hopefully making a difference.
I want other women to know that they can get through breast cancer. And afterwards, life might even be amazing…even if it’s two years down the track.
Let me know what you were doing two years after your breast cancer diagnosis….