It’s a lovely sunny day in Wellington and easy to feel positive about life. Lots of things are happening at the moment – pretty much all good – and sometimes I feel a bit overwhelmed. Not because there are stressful things but because there are lots of good things. To be honest, I’m not really accustomed to experiencing such good things and good health all at once…I feel very grateful.
I am finding now that I am self-employed, that I feel a lot happier in myself. However, it is not easy to get the work structure of a normal work day down pat. I am on my own most days during the week and it gets a little tedious as I like having colleagues.
I am learning to structure my day differently – trying not to work every day but just do the 3 days per week that I was doing before. It’s easy to sit down at the laptop in the evening or on non-work days so I need to be more disciplined. I see a career mentor and she explained that it is shown to be more stressful to be self-employed than it is to be an employee.
I am working on a couple of e-Books for the website about chemo and my tips and hints. I hope to have them finished in a few weeks.
Finding the right role part time can be a bit tricky. I am still not able to work more than three days or so a week. I have offers but they are usually full time and it’s a tricky balance to find the right role.
I am aiming to lose some weight over the rest of the year to improve my health (11kg to be exact, minimum, say the doctors). I have rejoined the gym and today, go in for my first assessment and workout. I am healthy in that I have been eating well, doing yoga, walks and cycling regularly. But I haven’t been doing a lot of cardio and need to lose the weight.
I have had a lot of headaches of late. Luckily not migraines but headaches that don’t respond to panadol and are just enough to stop me from doing things. Along with my acupuncturist, I have had to adopt a personal rule of not working on a day with a headache. Even after all the health issues, I sometimes find it hard to listen to my body. So when I get a headache, I try and carry on as normal.
So I guess, I am progressing through life like a normal person at the moment. I am grateful to be at this stage in life where I can plan, exercise and live days without thoughts of cancer.
On talking to a friend on the phone last night, I remembered an effective way of working out our goals and plans. If you had ten years left of life, how would you fill those years? If you had five years left, how would you fill that time? I don’t want to be negatively focused but asking these terribly difficult but fundamental questions about how we want to spend our days, answers the question of “what do I want to do with my life?”.
A lot of us would answer – travel to our dream destinations, spend time with family, partners and good friends, writing ‘that’ book or finishing that creative project, creating a legacy of some sort (a charity or leaving something important behind), doing volunteer work or starting a business.
Many of us are fortunate to have the ability to make these plans in a positive way. When ill, we are often drilling down to the daily level or hourly level – how can I spend today or get through today while feeling ill but still manage to make it a good day?
What makes a good day to you? What makes a good life to you?
What’s working for me:
- Weekly acupuncture with Todd Stewart at Harmonious Health
- Exercise daily if possible, 30-60 minutes. I just rejoined the gym
- Eating really well. Lots of protein and fresh fruit and veges
- Having some rest after working for the majority of the year
- Resting when I need to e.g. when I have headaches
- New goals for the future – writing, receiving mentoring and a new work role coming up